All the LOVE AND none of the RESPONSIBILITY

Tonight, I retired to my room after an intense conversation to find Karol Wojtyla's Love and Responsibility sitting on my bed, where I had thrown it in my early morning haste. I realized that I simply desire all the love and none of the responsibility. I am rarely okay with getting one second outside of myself to consider the consequences of my actions for someone else's life.

I used to often still think that the decisions I make emotionally and physically impact my life alone. Surprise! There is a somebody out there who will be deeply affected by the decisions I am making this year, this week, this day, related to my physical and emotional gifts.

So, tonight, I made a small resolution, and small progress, in the ways of being responsible in love. I was extremely honest about the struggles I have with emotional chastity. It hurt a lot. Probably mostly because I knew my life, and this friendship, had to change. I enjoy indulging in and disappearing into my emotional world. However, I know responsibility now will make the future so much more beautiful for me and the one I will, and can, and do, love, even now.