I've been thinking a lot lately about waiting.
Waiting is frustrating, and it's hard. I struggle with waiting. I want to rush things. I want to know now. I lack patience. Waiting is lonely, and terrifying, and makes me feel like I have no control. Most of the time I want to whine about how hard it is to wait for so long.
We're all waiting for something. Waiting for someone. Waiting to grow up. Waiting to be. Waiting to do. Waiting to move. Waiting to know His will. Waiting. Waiting.
Only, I've realized something.
There is joy in the waiting. There is hope in the uncertainty. I'm waiting.
Praise God!
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Waiting is hard, but waiting for something also means we are preparing for something. It's true I wait for a lot of things, but I think that waiting is nicer than coming to the moment of action (when everything most likely happens quickly). I think of when I was waiting for field training. i waited two years for it, and even though I knew exactly when it would come, I still felt impatient. But when it did come, it was all such a blur. suddenly there was NO more waiting, and all that time waiting (preparing) was put to good use. And when it was done, well I felt kind of empty, I'm not waiting on it anymore, it's done. So I now wait on other things, like graduation and commissioning. I guess we are always waiting on something : )
Especially after this year, I can see clearly that God makes us wait for things to show us that he's in control.
I read something from St. Augustine and Thomas Merton. God is so perfect, that we do His will even when we don't realize it. Even when we sin, somehow we play into the will of God. Even Atheists spend their whole lives accomplishing the will of God, even though they know nothing of his existence. How powerful is that to think of!
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